guess what?
Ok guys...i FINALLY realized something! ok for those of you who know i dont have a life, then, well, here's something that can help back up that point. For those of you who dont know that i dont have a life, well, im telling you right now that i dont.. and you'll soon realize it!
Ok soo... I havent blogged in a long long long long long long...(that doesnt have the same effect as "looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong" does it..? time.... Well, i just realized that leng kinda sounds like lang. =) i bet you never thought about that. well i didnt either! i kid. ok, so... after visiting numerous amounts of blogs like every single day... i realized that it's, well, almost, dissapointing... ALMOST...not really...but..kinda...dissapointing...when i pass by blogs that have not changed since the day before. And thus, i figured... poor all-those-people-who-also-dont-have-lives-who-visit-my-blog-everyday who are somewhat dissapointed day after day of not seeing my blog change ...for day after day...week after week. And so, here's your pointless post that you shouldnt have spent time reading. =)
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Let the thoughts begin! ut ohs. its a long one...can't you just feel it in You?
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ok fine, i should at least put SOMETHING up... i havent really put up any of my thoughts lately...hmmm....
So life has been good... evergrowing... everlearning... well...physically and mentally-schoolwise.. but spiritually? if only that were so. Why's it so hard, for me anyways, to stay on track and keep this fire burning for Him? It's not that I don't want to... it's like i keep losing myself elsewhere. It's like this passion dies out, just so that it can be reignited again...over and over again. What's it take to truly seek after Him...forever? God loves us so much, and hasn't ever stopped, yet i find its so hard to just keep on doing the same for him in return... Don't get me wrong, i dont think im like dying off or anything, i just think it's the stagnancy, the lack of movement, that just isnt REALLY getting anywhere... or...not very far anyways. Or, maybe... its more of a journey that's uphill the wholeway.. and if we stop.. we start to go backwards..
Sometimes I hear this saying.. "it's the heart that counts".. but is it really? how much does this apply to? I guess for me, i still this spirit in me, which keeps wanting to grow more, and learn more...And i ACTUALLY want this stuff to happen.. but without action, does this intention in my heart really count for anything? OR maybe, if i really had these intentions, i would take some action and just do it.. if i was really that ... passionate(?? cant find the word..) I find that for me it's the habits that are so hard to break out of... habits...hard to die. And if habits are so easily adopted... why not just use new habits to cover up the old ones? i tried that... it seems to not work very well.. Why? no idea... if someone would care to enlighten me.. =) Back to the topic of taking action... to me it's like... getting out of bed. A new challenge everyday, and although i do want to get up, and i dont want to be late...and i do want to have all this time in the morning to get a whole bunch of stuff done.. as much as i want it... the feeling of being in bed seems so much better. Our momentary desires vs whats better for us? HAha, yes maybe i do suck at giving examples... but yes, i think although sometimes we see what may be better or whatever... its just so hard to take action and just do it.
Oh, and yes, this is all my own opinion and stuff, and may not apply to anyone else, so if you disagree thats fine, but you're not disagreeing with facts, but rather my thoughts... just letting you know. =)
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school... man... SUCH a nerd this year.. well, not quite... but WAYY more than all my past other years. Ive been quite the busy this year with school and whatnot, and man, im getting sick of school already. Still trying hard and doing my work... but i cant help but think... "summer come back already..it's time..." Ive been doing all my work...quite the proud of myself... but the lazyness feels like it wants to kick in...REAL soon. It's been too big of a transition from games to work....from no work, to all my work. But... here's hopin that i can keep this up for the rest of the year. Oh, and here's a thought to all my fellow procrastinators, that think they are true procrastinators by not doing their work until the last minute. IF you were a TRUE procrastinator like ME, then you would leave procrastinating until the END of the year... So for now...you do your work. =) Haha, im sure that statement is probably quite the contradictory to itself, but im just trying to encourage more people to be hardworking like me... *rolls eyes* haha.
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ANd....quotes! and friends
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Last post i had posted a quote that went like so...
"There are many things in your life that you can't choose, but you can choose your friends"
So just some thoughts on that...
WEll, for many of you people that may or may not know.. im not the most outgoing friendly guy at school.. I dont put much effort into trying to make good friends at school, but rather avoid getting too close to any of my school friends. I think it's just me, but i find that people nowadays are quite the... i dunno... whats the word... corrupted? i dunnos... ah well... but yes... I myself have avoided getting close with people at school for reasons like so, because i know that I am a very easily influenced individual. And so, knowing that if i hung around with people at school (yes, there are still some good people)...i know that i might not be able to stop myself from doing things. And so, i avoid such predicaments, or just... 'foulness'(once again, i dont know the words to use...im not a man of many words... =\ ) by just not associating myself with many of these people. Example? swearing... i DON'T wanna be one of those people that swear.. and for all of you christians that read my blog.. i dont encourage it either! >=] Soo, you may think... maybe im just a goodie goodie, or like... im paranoid, or like...i dont know what. But in my opinion, as Christians we should be Christ-like... and by swearing, i dont think it helps to show the world how truly different we are. ANd yes, this world does it soo much that we've now become immune to it and its like nothing to us...and once again, that is why we must be a little more intentional in watching what we say.. and once again...these are just my opinions. =)
And so, going back to the friend topic i started with... so how are we supposed to choose our friends? How do we know, who truly is "good" or "bad". Yes, we shouldn't be the judges of others... and so should we just associate with everyone, and just hope that we can stand strong in our faith and not be influenced? I know that myself, would falter, and would not be able to stand for long...or so i think.. And this also leads to another quote i had put..
"Personality is what's seen; character, what lies beneath"
So... this quote kinda makes it hard for the previous quote... we can choose our friends... but how do we choose them if we dont really know what they're like?! aah! Should we just take our chances and hope for the 'beneath' to be better? Who knows... i dont even know where im getting at. I just feel like i need to release all these thoughts that have been held within for ages. haha.
But as for this most recent quote that i just put here... i think that it's definitely true. Sometimes we're so caught up in judging people and looking at only the outside, that we don't take our time to get to truly know them...and possibly, know how great they really are.
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WEEE, i love my church. So blessed...so blessed. Soon...very soon... coming sunday soon! we will have our new sanctuary. Well, im not too sure what its gonna be like, and i also dont know if it'll be cozy like our old sanctuary... but i still think that its gonna be great. However, i do know, that even though we wont have a "nice"(although i do think the inner court is quite the nice...i helped build stuff too...so you BETTER think it's nice... =D ) carpeted sanctuary,no pews, and stuff like that... we'll still have the Heart of Worship. Hopin that we can all see that our church is very blessed with many great people, many great...things? and that we can all just keep knowing that worshipping God is about where our heart's at... and that it can be done anywhere... even school! haha.
hmm...i dont know how much of this last paragraph made sense...but ah well...
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LeAderShiP! IS IT IN YOU?
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Here's another quote that i may refer to, very soon...
"You miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
So, lately for me, its been about the willingness to do stuff... and at least giving them a shot... trying things out, even if i might not be good at them..
Here's a couple to name a few... Winter retreat. Man.. planning the winter retreat this year for the Daniel group of this year. Who woulda known? Anyways, i decided to take up such a role upon myself because i kinda really wanted this retreat to happen...i dont know why, but i really did. And so, here I am now, planning some retreat.. doing something ive never done before. I have to admit, it is a bit stressful, especially with all the schoolwork and other... and sometimes i wish it would just be over with and 'let the party begin'...but its not like that unfortunately. But, its been kinda fun...its just a pain to have to do all this stuff right after school sometimes...stupid office hours...9-5...10-5...everything-5... i dont get home till like 4!! ah well, its been a bit fun.
And then, there's the doing children's worship. Not really a leader or anything, nor do i know how much i want to do this, but I think that if I've been given such an opportunity to help our church... to help with the kids.. to help with futures of our church... then...why not? Serving, is an important lesson that i think we should all learn sometime. Not saying that ive learnt all this and been a good one myself, but i just wanna encourage you guys to also be servants for Him, and who knows what wonders He may work through you. And regerring to my leadership title thingy... being a leader isnt always about a leader... but rather, in my opinion, being a servant. And back to the quote.. just take a shot at it.. =)
And... leadership.. more Daniel. Once again, taken up the responsibility of being a Cell group, or small group leader. I personally still done think i know how to lead... God teach me!! aah. I have many hopes for this group, but i dont know how to achieve them. I need a how-to guide... I want to be one that helps my group grow not only closer together with each other, but with God as well. I guess maybe sometimes i shouldn't think about it so much, and just let God work...and not doubt his wondrous power that can do all things... but don't we also have to put in our part.. as we are part of this body of Christ? once again, so much more to learn...
And lastly, no, i dont like writing essays. yes i know, you feel the same way... poor us... speaking of english test tomorrow...anyways..moving on..
And lastly, just being one of the older ones in the Daniel group i guess. How do you positively influence others? Am I a positive influence? i could only hope so...
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AND done!
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Ok, so just some last remarks by me before i leave...forever. WEll, this blog is ending here because i have tons of homework to do...and i need to save some brains for math, english, comp science, physics, chemistry, history, design, etc...
So, if you actually made it ALL the way here without just jumping from beginning to end.. (EDwin? you dont come here do you?) ... then... well, thanks for reading. haha. Ye faithful readers of my blog, should now be satisfied today.. today is the day..for which ive been waitin...jesus is a comin and im goin there...im packin my lunch..it wont be.....sorry guys. VBS. its STILL in my head..SOMEHOW. well not stuck there...but i can still remember it.
Till the next time! Apple much? =D haha...guys, im NOT weird. NOT weird...NOt weird.. =)
EDIT!! - There was absolutely no offense whatsoever to anyone... especially those who have no life and read blogs everyday. =) haha.
Ok soo... I havent blogged in a long long long long long long...(that doesnt have the same effect as "looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong" does it..? time.... Well, i just realized that leng kinda sounds like lang. =) i bet you never thought about that. well i didnt either! i kid. ok, so... after visiting numerous amounts of blogs like every single day... i realized that it's, well, almost, dissapointing... ALMOST...not really...but..kinda...dissapointing...when i pass by blogs that have not changed since the day before. And thus, i figured... poor all-those-people-who-also-dont-have-lives-who-visit-my-blog-everyday who are somewhat dissapointed day after day of not seeing my blog change ...for day after day...week after week. And so, here's your pointless post that you shouldnt have spent time reading. =)
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Let the thoughts begin! ut ohs. its a long one...can't you just feel it in You?
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ok fine, i should at least put SOMETHING up... i havent really put up any of my thoughts lately...hmmm....
So life has been good... evergrowing... everlearning... well...physically and mentally-schoolwise.. but spiritually? if only that were so. Why's it so hard, for me anyways, to stay on track and keep this fire burning for Him? It's not that I don't want to... it's like i keep losing myself elsewhere. It's like this passion dies out, just so that it can be reignited again...over and over again. What's it take to truly seek after Him...forever? God loves us so much, and hasn't ever stopped, yet i find its so hard to just keep on doing the same for him in return... Don't get me wrong, i dont think im like dying off or anything, i just think it's the stagnancy, the lack of movement, that just isnt REALLY getting anywhere... or...not very far anyways. Or, maybe... its more of a journey that's uphill the wholeway.. and if we stop.. we start to go backwards..
Sometimes I hear this saying.. "it's the heart that counts".. but is it really? how much does this apply to? I guess for me, i still this spirit in me, which keeps wanting to grow more, and learn more...And i ACTUALLY want this stuff to happen.. but without action, does this intention in my heart really count for anything? OR maybe, if i really had these intentions, i would take some action and just do it.. if i was really that ... passionate(?? cant find the word..) I find that for me it's the habits that are so hard to break out of... habits...hard to die. And if habits are so easily adopted... why not just use new habits to cover up the old ones? i tried that... it seems to not work very well.. Why? no idea... if someone would care to enlighten me.. =) Back to the topic of taking action... to me it's like... getting out of bed. A new challenge everyday, and although i do want to get up, and i dont want to be late...and i do want to have all this time in the morning to get a whole bunch of stuff done.. as much as i want it... the feeling of being in bed seems so much better. Our momentary desires vs whats better for us? HAha, yes maybe i do suck at giving examples... but yes, i think although sometimes we see what may be better or whatever... its just so hard to take action and just do it.
Oh, and yes, this is all my own opinion and stuff, and may not apply to anyone else, so if you disagree thats fine, but you're not disagreeing with facts, but rather my thoughts... just letting you know. =)
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NeRdIe ArE mE
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school... man... SUCH a nerd this year.. well, not quite... but WAYY more than all my past other years. Ive been quite the busy this year with school and whatnot, and man, im getting sick of school already. Still trying hard and doing my work... but i cant help but think... "summer come back already..it's time..." Ive been doing all my work...quite the proud of myself... but the lazyness feels like it wants to kick in...REAL soon. It's been too big of a transition from games to work....from no work, to all my work. But... here's hopin that i can keep this up for the rest of the year. Oh, and here's a thought to all my fellow procrastinators, that think they are true procrastinators by not doing their work until the last minute. IF you were a TRUE procrastinator like ME, then you would leave procrastinating until the END of the year... So for now...you do your work. =) Haha, im sure that statement is probably quite the contradictory to itself, but im just trying to encourage more people to be hardworking like me... *rolls eyes* haha.
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ANd....quotes! and friends
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Last post i had posted a quote that went like so...
"There are many things in your life that you can't choose, but you can choose your friends"
So just some thoughts on that...
WEll, for many of you people that may or may not know.. im not the most outgoing friendly guy at school.. I dont put much effort into trying to make good friends at school, but rather avoid getting too close to any of my school friends. I think it's just me, but i find that people nowadays are quite the... i dunno... whats the word... corrupted? i dunnos... ah well... but yes... I myself have avoided getting close with people at school for reasons like so, because i know that I am a very easily influenced individual. And so, knowing that if i hung around with people at school (yes, there are still some good people)...i know that i might not be able to stop myself from doing things. And so, i avoid such predicaments, or just... 'foulness'(once again, i dont know the words to use...im not a man of many words... =\ ) by just not associating myself with many of these people. Example? swearing... i DON'T wanna be one of those people that swear.. and for all of you christians that read my blog.. i dont encourage it either! >=] Soo, you may think... maybe im just a goodie goodie, or like... im paranoid, or like...i dont know what. But in my opinion, as Christians we should be Christ-like... and by swearing, i dont think it helps to show the world how truly different we are. ANd yes, this world does it soo much that we've now become immune to it and its like nothing to us...and once again, that is why we must be a little more intentional in watching what we say.. and once again...these are just my opinions. =)
And so, going back to the friend topic i started with... so how are we supposed to choose our friends? How do we know, who truly is "good" or "bad". Yes, we shouldn't be the judges of others... and so should we just associate with everyone, and just hope that we can stand strong in our faith and not be influenced? I know that myself, would falter, and would not be able to stand for long...or so i think.. And this also leads to another quote i had put..
"Personality is what's seen; character, what lies beneath"
So... this quote kinda makes it hard for the previous quote... we can choose our friends... but how do we choose them if we dont really know what they're like?! aah! Should we just take our chances and hope for the 'beneath' to be better? Who knows... i dont even know where im getting at. I just feel like i need to release all these thoughts that have been held within for ages. haha.
But as for this most recent quote that i just put here... i think that it's definitely true. Sometimes we're so caught up in judging people and looking at only the outside, that we don't take our time to get to truly know them...and possibly, know how great they really are.
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><> ETCBC <><
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WEEE, i love my church. So blessed...so blessed. Soon...very soon... coming sunday soon! we will have our new sanctuary. Well, im not too sure what its gonna be like, and i also dont know if it'll be cozy like our old sanctuary... but i still think that its gonna be great. However, i do know, that even though we wont have a "nice"(although i do think the inner court is quite the nice...i helped build stuff too...so you BETTER think it's nice... =D ) carpeted sanctuary,no pews, and stuff like that... we'll still have the Heart of Worship. Hopin that we can all see that our church is very blessed with many great people, many great...things? and that we can all just keep knowing that worshipping God is about where our heart's at... and that it can be done anywhere... even school! haha.
hmm...i dont know how much of this last paragraph made sense...but ah well...
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LeAderShiP! IS IT IN YOU?
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Here's another quote that i may refer to, very soon...
"You miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
So, lately for me, its been about the willingness to do stuff... and at least giving them a shot... trying things out, even if i might not be good at them..
Here's a couple to name a few... Winter retreat. Man.. planning the winter retreat this year for the Daniel group of this year. Who woulda known? Anyways, i decided to take up such a role upon myself because i kinda really wanted this retreat to happen...i dont know why, but i really did. And so, here I am now, planning some retreat.. doing something ive never done before. I have to admit, it is a bit stressful, especially with all the schoolwork and other... and sometimes i wish it would just be over with and 'let the party begin'...but its not like that unfortunately. But, its been kinda fun...its just a pain to have to do all this stuff right after school sometimes...stupid office hours...9-5...10-5...everything-5... i dont get home till like 4!! ah well, its been a bit fun.
And then, there's the doing children's worship. Not really a leader or anything, nor do i know how much i want to do this, but I think that if I've been given such an opportunity to help our church... to help with the kids.. to help with futures of our church... then...why not? Serving, is an important lesson that i think we should all learn sometime. Not saying that ive learnt all this and been a good one myself, but i just wanna encourage you guys to also be servants for Him, and who knows what wonders He may work through you. And regerring to my leadership title thingy... being a leader isnt always about a leader... but rather, in my opinion, being a servant. And back to the quote.. just take a shot at it.. =)
And... leadership.. more Daniel. Once again, taken up the responsibility of being a Cell group, or small group leader. I personally still done think i know how to lead... God teach me!! aah. I have many hopes for this group, but i dont know how to achieve them. I need a how-to guide... I want to be one that helps my group grow not only closer together with each other, but with God as well. I guess maybe sometimes i shouldn't think about it so much, and just let God work...and not doubt his wondrous power that can do all things... but don't we also have to put in our part.. as we are part of this body of Christ? once again, so much more to learn...
And lastly, no, i dont like writing essays. yes i know, you feel the same way... poor us... speaking of english test tomorrow...anyways..moving on..
And lastly, just being one of the older ones in the Daniel group i guess. How do you positively influence others? Am I a positive influence? i could only hope so...
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AND done!
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Ok, so just some last remarks by me before i leave...forever. WEll, this blog is ending here because i have tons of homework to do...and i need to save some brains for math, english, comp science, physics, chemistry, history, design, etc...
So, if you actually made it ALL the way here without just jumping from beginning to end.. (EDwin? you dont come here do you?) ... then... well, thanks for reading. haha. Ye faithful readers of my blog, should now be satisfied today.. today is the day..for which ive been waitin...jesus is a comin and im goin there...im packin my lunch..it wont be.....sorry guys. VBS. its STILL in my head..SOMEHOW. well not stuck there...but i can still remember it.
Till the next time! Apple much? =D haha...guys, im NOT weird. NOT weird...NOt weird.. =)
EDIT!! - There was absolutely no offense whatsoever to anyone... especially those who have no life and read blogs everyday. =) haha.
posted by wess at 6:33 PM
12 Comments:
I like bananas!
Hey Wes, I'm the newest of those faithful-check-your-blog-everday-to-be-disappointed ppl =D
I know that stagnant feeling, work is such a central part of my day that I just don't seem to find the time to spend time wit God. It's really hard trying to keep that fire burning, if only I had some good advice to give you I would put it here (______) ... but I don't =(
Choosing friends is also hard in high school. Being the sociable person I am (ya right) I was friends with almost every social group in school, from the nerds to the jocks... but I was never really a real friend with anyone. It's hard to find someone you can trust, who you can share those intimate things with and not worry about the reprecussions. Once again, here's another blank area where my good advice should go
(_____) =(
I think that you would make a great leader in anything you do, including small groups and stuff. I know that you may not see it, but I do and more importantly God does. FROG!
And ARGH! to you Mr. J. Archer, I wanted first comment =(
i jumped two sections.
why DO we all get those...plateau periods in our spiritual lives?? you know what? i think one of the best ways to grow is sharing what you learn and even when you're not learning. cuz then you both get new insights and cool stuff like that...but it's also hard to find someone to share with and actually be able to grow with.
another thing...i admire how you wanna stay pure..of mind. since cr, we've gotten a lot less sensitive to swearing and crude jokes and stuff. it's so easy to fall for it! thanks for staying strong in that area cuz it encourages me to be aware of it too.
I'm not sure spiritual plateaus exist... I'd be more confident if I thought we had accurate instruments to measure spiritual progress, but we don't. How many times have people thought that God wasn't doing anything, only to see in hindsight that they were so wrong?
Your mother!
YOU'VE.BEEN.STALKED.
ehh i guess i fall in that no lives category, anyways on these 'spiritual plateaus' im sure we all get them, and it realizing that you have them would be the first step to..get rid of it? heh good luck with that one, i've never been the 'advice-giving' type, so i guess the only thing i can do for you is pray? &i'm sure inner-court will be really awesome as you've told me, it doesn't matter where we're worshipping because it's all in the heart =P keep working hard in school, but beware of the constant spamming of the HAILEY. (MAN she's annoying-_-) TATA =) see you..tomorrow?
--H.
wooow wes whtta long blog .. for the last time your not lifeless >_> but anyways i jux kinda skimmed thru ur blog cus i am an extremely slow reader . but i got to the point abt worshipping.. it doesnt matter where its done. then the part abt the thought that counts o_o soo i guess tht means when were singing we gotta mean wht we say, its kinda hard sometimes ><',, ahh well im sure inner court will be as awesome as our sanctuary now =I
well wess.. quite a long blog.. im not ur regular readers.. but im reading today..
- good job helping with inner court, its nice, its nice..=)
- keep working hard in school wess. edu is important. .. i sound like my dad. =/
- u do great leadering.
- agreed with warren with the friend thing. =)
word...
>.< I comment here!
I'm feeling pretty lifeless so I'm going around to everyone's blogs. I read every word of this entry! Muahaha.
Er. Yes. And don't worry, VBS songs are always with me. Not stuck, but if someone sings it, it automatically plays in my head...=/
Well, to be honest, I only read the first and last paragraph. And actually to be even more honest, I lied, I didn't bother reading it at all. But yes, I agree with everything you say *nods*
Wow, Katy just told me it mentioned about me so I ctrl+f to find my name. It's amazing how fast you can learn about people through internet blogging =P
wow Edwin... lol. you found my blog, and you did exactly what i thought you'd do. SKip right through it! haha... you did read your name...within context right?
-yay i like input. thanks peoplezz
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