Me? Why me?
*this is a section that i felt like putting in, but it doesnt really relate to the rest of my blog, so i thought id just put this superficial stuff up at the top again, just so i can bore you a little so that when things actually get 'interesting' they will be more interesting...
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heres your warning of a long blog. =)
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For those of you that didnt read my last blog...i was home alone! It wasnt anything too special, as i would have imagined. a regular weekend where im out the whole day, and monday was spent sleeping and just spending time at the computer *sigh*. Tuesday waking up late and then softball later...and then of course theres the phone...which will be mentioned later in the blog. Since being home alone was nothing special with nothing worth mentioning to talk about, I will talk about softball! sorry guys...i go to ET.. and play softball..there goes half my life... kidding..
Saturday was our game vs Salvation... I honestly cant remember what happened that day.. Sunday, I went to go watch the Lumas game against Satellites...and that was cool...and then had a game vs Slingers. Didn't get to go to the Tenefrancia's house...=(...but i got to go eat at Tako Sushi with the Slingers. Fun, had my 11 course meal which i finished (with difficulty)...my stomach shrunk...all the eating out has caused me to eat less and less (at home i eat a lot...when my mom cooks...)
On tuesday we had practice @ bev glen..which was taken...so we checked out warden...taken...so then we moved to huntsmill....and the main field was also taken...so we just moved onto the smaller fields.. During our practice... the SOCS JR arrived at the park...and we ended up scrimmaging with them. THat was fun, got to see some friends i hadn't seen in a while (I worked as a camp counselor at their church during summer 2005). Oh yes, i also hit my first home run in a game...too bad it wasnt regular season.
Wednesday I joined the Lions at their practice...they didnt let me bat...because my brother took up all the time during the bp...(but a number of others were able to bp before him). Was ok...seemed pretty relaxed...poor Amy got hit in the face...now she has a swollen eye....
Thursday practice got cancelled due to rain *sigh*
Friday was a crazy day...practiced from like 5-7:30...then went to the park to play soccer until like...no idea...and then went back to church and played volleyball...good day...i need more exercise...
I have finally been able to get some regular sleeping habits...but they're awful!!! awful i tell you, awful. Not that im trying to change it, or that i mind it even...but...i know it cant be good. Sleeping anywhere from 3-6 until 11-2. Those are my habits..but bad ones i think..we can tell by the time that i posted this that i dont sleep early anymore...its more like...the sun is coming up...time to sleep...
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And now the actual blog begins....
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Lots of times a question that has come to mind...is ..."why me?"
It seems to apply to many things...when i dont want to do something..."why me?"...when something out of the ordinary happens..."why me?".. when I feel im not good enough for something.."why me?"
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Recently some things have gotten...odd...around here. The phone...definitely not something that is not used often over here at my house...(other than my brother...but thats more of a recent thing im not gonna talk about here...=) So surprisingly...after all my family left me.. something....strange...happened. I got called...many...times. Definitely something out of the ordinary, and also quite weird at first...but after getting called by a number girls every night for the past...week or so...I almost kind of got used to it...almost...hours on the phone for night after night. Am i turning into a phone person? i cant imagine. So after every phone call, or after a while anyways....i couldnt help but think to myself...why me? why are they (as in these...girls) calling me? After three nights of the same girls calling me..i told her not to call me one day (for that day...she normally asks if she can call me), in hopes that she wouldn't get attached to me (if not already, she might eventually, if she kept calling me everyday...) or something disastrous like that...and then another one called me! I still dont know why they would call me...but that's been on my mind as of late...Life has just definitely gone out of the ordinary...like...Wesley doesn't get called...ever... and getting called by girls all of a sudden? oh geez...cant be good.
Just wondering...could talking on the phone too much be a bad habit? (yes i know, its obvious i dont talk on the phone much)
*Note to readers- NO, i am NOT trying to make myself look good or whatnot...its just whats been happening...(not much else goes on other than softball and computer in my life *rolls eyes*) so if theres anything that interests you, i thought it might just be the above (as in my phony life ...heh).
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And moving onto more "why me?" stuff...on Friday I was asked to help lead the Bible studies at the Summer Sojourn for the high schoolers...it was just like...wow...such a big task...on me...
Personally, when I was asked, I was thinking in my head "no...cant do it". A couple of hours later, as I sat at wigmore just doing my regular devotions.. I came upon this section in my 'Experiencing God' book... The 'God works through you' section... It just seemed...uh...it seemed like God was just telling me to take on this challenge...
In my opinion, I really dont see me as much of a leader yet...i feel like im still one of the people that should be learning...not teaching. Im one of those people that doesnt talk much when it comes to something like a bible study...one of those people that just doesnt feel ready..
For a while now, I've asked God to just let him use me...to just let me be his servant.. and it now seems like an opportunity has come.
Here's some lines that stood out to me in my devotion if you would care to read.. (these are not scripture from the Bible, but just stuff from the book 'Experiencing God')
"When God purposes to do something through you, the assignment will have God-sized dimensions. This is because God wants to reveal Himself to you and those around you. If you can do the work in your own strength, people will not come to know God. However, if God works through you to do what only He can do, you and those around you will come to know Him."
"He is the one who accomplishes the assignment, but He does it through you."
"You too, will be blessed when God does a special, God-sized work through you. You will come to know Him in a way that will bring rejoicing to your life. When other people see you experiencing God that way, they are going to want to know how they, too, can experience God that way. Be prepared to point them to God"
"If you are obedient, God will work some wonderful things through you. You will need to be very careful that any testimony about what God has done gives glory only to Him"
"God will never give me an assignment that He will not enable me to complete"
"God calls you to a relationship in which you are willing to do and be anything he chooses"
So those are just some stuff that kind of stood out in my devotion today..
And now when i ask the question "why me?" ...I think its God calling me to my next assignment. I still dont know
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My 'Experiencing God' book study thing is now over...i personally think its a great book... if you have the spirit of learning and are willing to learn, and want to learn something....theres a lot in there to learn (this actually applies to most things...if you want to learn something and wanna get something out of something...then you probably will). So yah, in my opinion, good book... if possible... read it sometime...
Once again i say... if its Him teaching you something...it dont get better than that.
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So yah... been learning stuff still... I think God has definitely done some work in my life... And its great to have such an awesome church always there with great people that have been a blessing to me.. (you know you gotta love ET...) Just hoping I could be a blessing to others as well..in some way or another..
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heres your warning of a long blog. =)
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
For those of you that didnt read my last blog...i was home alone! It wasnt anything too special, as i would have imagined. a regular weekend where im out the whole day, and monday was spent sleeping and just spending time at the computer *sigh*. Tuesday waking up late and then softball later...and then of course theres the phone...which will be mentioned later in the blog. Since being home alone was nothing special with nothing worth mentioning to talk about, I will talk about softball! sorry guys...i go to ET.. and play softball..there goes half my life... kidding..
Saturday was our game vs Salvation... I honestly cant remember what happened that day.. Sunday, I went to go watch the Lumas game against Satellites...and that was cool...and then had a game vs Slingers. Didn't get to go to the Tenefrancia's house...=(...but i got to go eat at Tako Sushi with the Slingers. Fun, had my 11 course meal which i finished (with difficulty)...my stomach shrunk...all the eating out has caused me to eat less and less (at home i eat a lot...when my mom cooks...)
On tuesday we had practice @ bev glen..which was taken...so we checked out warden...taken...so then we moved to huntsmill....and the main field was also taken...so we just moved onto the smaller fields.. During our practice... the SOCS JR arrived at the park...and we ended up scrimmaging with them. THat was fun, got to see some friends i hadn't seen in a while (I worked as a camp counselor at their church during summer 2005). Oh yes, i also hit my first home run in a game...too bad it wasnt regular season.
Wednesday I joined the Lions at their practice...they didnt let me bat...because my brother took up all the time during the bp...(but a number of others were able to bp before him). Was ok...seemed pretty relaxed...poor Amy got hit in the face...now she has a swollen eye....
Thursday practice got cancelled due to rain *sigh*
Friday was a crazy day...practiced from like 5-7:30...then went to the park to play soccer until like...no idea...and then went back to church and played volleyball...good day...i need more exercise...
I have finally been able to get some regular sleeping habits...but they're awful!!! awful i tell you, awful. Not that im trying to change it, or that i mind it even...but...i know it cant be good. Sleeping anywhere from 3-6 until 11-2. Those are my habits..but bad ones i think..we can tell by the time that i posted this that i dont sleep early anymore...its more like...the sun is coming up...time to sleep...
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And now the actual blog begins....
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Lots of times a question that has come to mind...is ..."why me?"
It seems to apply to many things...when i dont want to do something..."why me?"...when something out of the ordinary happens..."why me?".. when I feel im not good enough for something.."why me?"
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Recently some things have gotten...odd...around here. The phone...definitely not something that is not used often over here at my house...(other than my brother...but thats more of a recent thing im not gonna talk about here...=) So surprisingly...after all my family left me.. something....strange...happened. I got called...many...times. Definitely something out of the ordinary, and also quite weird at first...but after getting called by a number girls every night for the past...week or so...I almost kind of got used to it...almost...hours on the phone for night after night. Am i turning into a phone person? i cant imagine. So after every phone call, or after a while anyways....i couldnt help but think to myself...why me? why are they (as in these...girls) calling me? After three nights of the same girls calling me..i told her not to call me one day (for that day...she normally asks if she can call me), in hopes that she wouldn't get attached to me (if not already, she might eventually, if she kept calling me everyday...) or something disastrous like that...and then another one called me! I still dont know why they would call me...but that's been on my mind as of late...Life has just definitely gone out of the ordinary...like...Wesley doesn't get called...ever... and getting called by girls all of a sudden? oh geez...cant be good.
Just wondering...could talking on the phone too much be a bad habit? (yes i know, its obvious i dont talk on the phone much)
*Note to readers- NO, i am NOT trying to make myself look good or whatnot...its just whats been happening...(not much else goes on other than softball and computer in my life *rolls eyes*) so if theres anything that interests you, i thought it might just be the above (as in my phony life ...heh).
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
And moving onto more "why me?" stuff...on Friday I was asked to help lead the Bible studies at the Summer Sojourn for the high schoolers...it was just like...wow...such a big task...on me...
Personally, when I was asked, I was thinking in my head "no...cant do it". A couple of hours later, as I sat at wigmore just doing my regular devotions.. I came upon this section in my 'Experiencing God' book... The 'God works through you' section... It just seemed...uh...it seemed like God was just telling me to take on this challenge...
In my opinion, I really dont see me as much of a leader yet...i feel like im still one of the people that should be learning...not teaching. Im one of those people that doesnt talk much when it comes to something like a bible study...one of those people that just doesnt feel ready..
For a while now, I've asked God to just let him use me...to just let me be his servant.. and it now seems like an opportunity has come.
Here's some lines that stood out to me in my devotion if you would care to read.. (these are not scripture from the Bible, but just stuff from the book 'Experiencing God')
"When God purposes to do something through you, the assignment will have God-sized dimensions. This is because God wants to reveal Himself to you and those around you. If you can do the work in your own strength, people will not come to know God. However, if God works through you to do what only He can do, you and those around you will come to know Him."
"He is the one who accomplishes the assignment, but He does it through you."
"You too, will be blessed when God does a special, God-sized work through you. You will come to know Him in a way that will bring rejoicing to your life. When other people see you experiencing God that way, they are going to want to know how they, too, can experience God that way. Be prepared to point them to God"
"If you are obedient, God will work some wonderful things through you. You will need to be very careful that any testimony about what God has done gives glory only to Him"
"God will never give me an assignment that He will not enable me to complete"
"God calls you to a relationship in which you are willing to do and be anything he chooses"
So those are just some stuff that kind of stood out in my devotion today..
And now when i ask the question "why me?" ...I think its God calling me to my next assignment. I still dont know
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My 'Experiencing God' book study thing is now over...i personally think its a great book... if you have the spirit of learning and are willing to learn, and want to learn something....theres a lot in there to learn (this actually applies to most things...if you want to learn something and wanna get something out of something...then you probably will). So yah, in my opinion, good book... if possible... read it sometime...
Once again i say... if its Him teaching you something...it dont get better than that.
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So yah... been learning stuff still... I think God has definitely done some work in my life... And its great to have such an awesome church always there with great people that have been a blessing to me.. (you know you gotta love ET...) Just hoping I could be a blessing to others as well..in some way or another..
posted by wess at 4:23 AM
1 Comments:
o my goodness wesley, not ALL of us call you cuz we want to... T.T well at least not me... i mean u were the one that said u wanted to talk to me after i fini talking to dani so pft xp
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